Weight A Second!

I received word recently that a dear friend of mine is entering the world of marital bliss. Her living in another country has made it difficult to receive all the details and mushy engagement story play-by-play's, but in the days that followed her engagement, more and more pieces of this fairytale story came together. I "awwed" and "eeee'd" as any bridesmaid nominee does, until an email arrived that clarified the date of this upcoming wedded celebration... IN 3 MONTHS!

*Insert annoyingly loud and dramatic tire screeching sound*

What?! Me? Dress? Double chin? Flabby arms? What?! WEIGHT! er, WAIT!

Now, obviously my flabby arms and double chin are the least of her worries as she frantically plans a wedding time zones away with a rather large countdown approaching, so dear, lovely, amazing, friend that may read this - you're beautiful and wonderful and this wedding will be beautiful, and do not take my distress as an idicator that I'm not thrilled beyond belief to be standing beside you on the day all your dreams come true......... I will however apologize in advance for my dress size and probably malnourished presence when that lovely day arrives ;) LOL! I love you D!

So yeah, for real! My Barbie looking bestie will look even more ravishing with my tree trunk legs poking out of a dress too large to admit on the world wide web. Ha!

Now, I've never been thin. In fact, many childhood memories include images of sand being thrown at recess and hateful nicknames being muttered out of earshot of teachers. I've always fought to look best in my body despite what genes and life has dealt me. I definitely had phases of acceptance, and satire aside, I had some dangerous methods of acceptance tossed in as well.

Elementary = Emotional Eating
Jr. High = Annorexia
High School = Adopted healthy habits of working out and being cautious of what and how much I ate
College = Learned to look past the size and just wear what fit and looked good
Later in College = Emotional Eating
Adulthood = Hang head in shame often and make excuses for why I've gained the weight that I have and rarely ever get motivated enough to change it

I've attempted some rather reckless diets in the more recent past, and I've prayed for contentment. But the truth is, you'll never change unless you truly want to. Now, this wedding is definitely motivation! Which I'm SOOO thankful for :) I know that this is what I needed to really START caring about my body again. Hopefully this will be the starting point to a whole new phase of healthy living and lifestyle changes that we all really need. Now... my arch nemesis's will be lurking around each corner... Popeyes chicken and Sweet Tea will probably act as my cryptonite! But a few purposeful route changes and fewer coins in my purse should fix those temptations right up.... with an occasional straight jacket and shock therapy I'm sure.

How am I choosing to do this? Well, fear not, I'm doing it the old fashioned way and the safe way: good ole diet and exercise. I've paroozed online for "get thin quick" plans and it's honesly rubbish. I need to activate my body and cut the crap. I'm getting off the couch and cutting fatty foods that I know I shouldnt eat in the first place. And I'm going back to my old rule: if I choose to have desert or something unhealthy I choose to add a mile to my workout. Boo ya. I say this not to brag, but to offer inspiration to lots of people! I'll track my progress on here, and I'm sure it will be entertaining... and probably a bit embarassing! But people. Thats. How. I. Roll.... literally... have I mentioned that I'm round?

94 days to go and plenty of pounds... Bring it on.